My birthday is 2 weeks from today and i just seem to get so depressed around this time of year. I love having my birthday and I don't mind getting older each year. It's just I seem to just start thinking about everything I don't have that I see others with. It seems like everyone around me has a nice house and a family and they are so happy and I feel like I'm stuck in such a rut.
Some times I feel like life is something that happens to everyone else because the things I'm suppose to have I don't feel like I ever will no matter how hard I try.
I guess it doesn't help that I don't have any friends around me who I can talk to. I tell Paul that I feel lonely and he says that he is here for me but, there are just some things you can't talk to a guy about (you know what I mean?).
I didn't want to get out of bed today but, since I missed so much time a few weeks ago when I was sick I feel like I "have to" go to work today. :(
Sorry to depress all of you with my rant :) but, I don't have any place else to get this off my chest.